Baby,我错了，可以告诉我怎么挽回吗？

Dear，如果你朋友不想来，可以更我说，想见我，可以告诉我。

别担心会让我失望。
如果不想，一定要告诉我
别让自己做不想做的事情。
如果我知道了，心会很疼...
很希望不让自己的女朋友做哪些她不喜欢做的...


对不起·，请原谅那时没勇气的我，
连牵着你的手的勇气都没有...
对不起，请原谅那时没责任的我，
让你觉得我不把你当成女朋友那么对待，
对不起，请原谅那时没态度的我，
让你那么失望...
对不起，请原谅那时没用的我，
连吃晚餐都没和你一起吃...


我只能和你说对不起，
知道我没办法体会你的心
我知道说了也没用
baby已经痛过了...


Dear，我答应你，
以后有什么事，一定会告诉你，但，我会很努力很努力去不让你再次的伤心，
这是我的责任，
去体会你，了解你


我，答应你
Baby的要求，我会尽量，尽快的去解决，
去避免那些不必要的误会

Baby，谢谢你
谢谢你，告诉我错在哪里。。。


--aAJ3nn1--

Baby，因为我的无知，而让你不开心，对不起

The original idea is, to bring u all to the SOH exhibition, plus since baby never been to the WKSGM, so I initially want to bring u there myself… but, things don’t go the way it should, so, baby, from the bottom of my heart, im sorry..

In the ktm, because im bringing Evelyn there, its my responsibility to keep her occupied, try to make her feel that she is not alone… that y I take the decision to stand by u, but there is this 2 monkey hair malay dude is standing there… I was trying to let u listen to the song that I wanna share with u, but i only got the chance to show u at kajang… why? Cause im too afraid to ask the malay guy n say “hei, I wanna stand here by the side of my gf”

By the time we met Myo I, n Yuan Tian, im too, afraid… My close friend Myo I is there, then Evelyn is also there… I don’t know where my balls went that time…

After arrive at WK, same thing… My balls went missing again… What I do? Put on the happy excited face, n learn as much as I could… it was me who ask her to be there, it was also me, so invited Evelyn, Stacey, Ah Hou, even by half sister Wei Yi… I im help responsible to make sure that they won’t feel isolated…

Baby, im very sorry that I can’t company u for long, even I don’t have the courage to hold your soft warm hands…

Sorry for not able to be with u,

Sorry for not be able to hold ur heavy bag for u

Sorry for not be able to company u when u r bored..

Sorry for being not able to get water and food when u r thirsty n hungry

And most of all,

Sorry for not able to be at ur side, when u need me most….

Please, let me do better for u… let my shoulder be ur resting place when u r tired, let me comfort u in my shoulder when u cry; let me take care of u when u r not well…

So, baby, from my bottom of my heart, please forgive me…

My Best Birthday Gift

Some couple of days before, a friend just came back from Cameron Highland, and told me about her journey. Then the "million dollar" came out.. “Have u been to Cameron highland before?” and that, becomes the trigger for this blog…. Its all about my 19 year old birthday present.. and for the throne queen, I will make it short…

Its about a journey of climbing 7 mounts, and crossing 21 rivers…

Day 1, 22 Oct 09, 

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 from UniKL MIAT, we took a bus to Gopeng, Perak...

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we stoped by at Tanjung Malim and have our supper at a road side restaurant name “I LuV U corner”.

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the journey continues when we arrived at Gopeng bus station.

There, we were welcomed by mr BOTAK, a very active baldy, and he is our guide of our trip...

The thing that makes that night special is we have to sleep on the street... 19 of us... Haha

Hei, dont look, i wanna pee

DAY 2, 23 Oct 09, 

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The real thrill starts with a lorry which bring us into the jungle of Gopeng like cross country

we have to stand on the back of the lorry for an hour... 

but it feels like riding a roller coaster for 5 minutes...

it cross a tiny little metal bridge, which only fit the tires... it cross deadly slopes... it cross holes... 

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start tracking

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we cross the 1st river, and.....

.....our 1st rest point.

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We came into a village of orang asli

the people, the dogs, the chickens.. looks so unfamiliar.. then I saw something that really catch my eyes, orang asli uses electricity, that comes from  BIG SOLAR PANELs!!

A while later we reach an old dam which has '1978' engrave on it

Botak explain that this dam exist since japs was in our soil...

1987 dam

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we reach our 1st spot for our lunch on the river bank. 

What’s for lunch? 8 packets of maggie kari instant noodles and coffee

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continue hike

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we arrived at our camp site, kem Sungai Penjalin 1

which is near the river bank...

but, before reaching it, we have to cross it....

on the other side of the river,

We set up our camp, settle down, 

and the guys go wash up...

Dinner time

DAY 3, 24 Oct 09, 

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We start our day with bread and jam for breakfast.

and the journey continues...

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arrived at the interception of Sungai Penjalin and the main stream…

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reach campsite Sungai Penjalin 3. We un-pack for lunch, fried rice with coleslaw...

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The real hike start, a steep slope, wit bout 10kg bag pack nonstop for 20min...

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our unwanted guest came, the rain. It was wet and cold, but the hike continue...

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we arrive at our 2nd camp site, a orang asli village, the space aint wide, but we manage to set up a camp. we camp there, and had a salty dinner. It consist of super salty black pepper beef, salty rice, and salty mix vegetable... sorry, no picture.. :P

DAY 4, 25 Oct 09,

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we supposedly start hiking at 0900, but everyone overslept. Fried rice for breakfast…

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start hike with another slope..

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we take ‘5’ on track permatang, the height almost the same as the peak... it was here, when then million dollar question came out, “when is your 1^st time to Cameron?”, “when is the last time u came Cameron?” everyone is happy asking n sharing, while I kept quite.. and then, the questions hits me… “1^st time to Cameron, by 

foot…” all of a sudden, complete silence, and then blast into laughter…

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climb continues..

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stop hike n prepare lunch

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rains begin to pour… we ate Maggie lunch under a flying sheet,  special isn’t it???

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rains stop, hike continue

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last pit stop. It is a very beautiful spot, a ex-waterfall way.

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the last steep hike

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 arrived at mount Ubi, last peak.

When a hiker hikes, they never stop, although the hike is tough, but we take it as challenge, we skip city buzzing life for a moment, experience what mother nature can offer, try to survive in the heart of a jungle, all of them, are precious moments..

“Although the hike is hard, but the pay back, the view, never disappoints us…”

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after some picture moment, we continue hike towards our exit, out of a sudden,

 I see civilization. It is another orang asli village, but developed by the gov, n work in the tea plantation


orang asli kids dont see people that come out of a jungle much.. thats why, they are super friendly

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my first sight of Cameron. It looks like the sceen in the Hindustan movies...

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my first sight of Cameron’s building..

friends are looking for a clean toilet,

reading signs for hints.

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we arrive at the Bharat tea house.. the tourist was shock watching dirty hikers come out of nowhere.

From there, we took a car n a van toward Tanah Rata. For those who have been to Cameron should know the place,. We have our hot water bath, dinner, and head back to campus..

So, when people ask me about Cameron, this is what I will ask them, “U went there by car? Bus? Hehe, I went by foot… 4 day, 7 mounts, 21 rivers… and that, is my Cameron story, my best birthday gift so far”

a "SeaT" which is reserved for someone

Everyone have a throne, as they are the KING in their world, so, i am sure that there will always be a 'throne' for the QUEEN...


There is some who know what i am talking about, and of course, there will be a lot of people don't understand what i am crapping about.... never mind... what you do it is, imagine you yourself is a king, you have a throne... and of course, you will have a throne for your queen (u know what i mean)..


So, for this particular person, i believe i told you before that the "seat" is empty for quite sometime now... And i and you know that, and i believe that, you are now sitting on it, the place, the throne queen, of my kingdom...


We have been together without noticing.. and that is something special.. when i need a person to talk to, you are there.. when i got something to share with, you are also there... 


Sweet n bitterness, i thank you for being by my side.... <3


So, baby, u have been doing a lot for me.. so, do let me to know you more, understand you more.. And i will always pray for your happiness and well being of your family






...aAJ3nn1...

1st blog for my new blog from my ex-blog :P

When people ask me, “Why do we Drink??”
I really don’t know, then I remember what my friend told me

“I drink, because i've grown to accept thing as they are...
The inquisitive child inside us had died ...
long ago in a world he questioned too hard.....
in a world that didnt love him back...

We can hear echoes of the lust and pain...
far louder than the fantasies of peace and order....
we are not weak, but we are HONEST...
the only difference is that the sober try so hard to lie themselves
just to sleep every night....”

That’s the only shot we have to make it...
we are all the same
we are all alone
when the lights are out..


Alcohol is our bastard friend....
but in the end of the day....
He is our only friend.....